Thursday, November 26, 2009
{ Thursday, November 26, 2009 }
- your eyes , i`m over it , your smile , i`m over it.
Realized i`m over it.
Moving on it`s my time , you were never a friend of mine.
No matter how hard it gets , though the once in awhile break downs , i know one day this misery of mine will end , and when that day comes , it`ll be you who will be regretting .
Nothing lasts forever , even hurt , it`s meant to go away someday or another , It`s simply like the saying every dog has it`s day , my day will come to , and when my day comes , watch me shine !
Friday, November 13, 2009
{ Friday, November 13, 2009 }
; Though everyday i go out with a smile and have proved everyone that i have changed and moved on in life , nothing has really changed at all .
I tried to move on and be happy by keeping myself occupied with work , but then when the nights i`m alone and just sitting down , the past comes back and haunt me , leaving me horrible nightmares to remind me that everything i had was real.
Our friendship.
The conversations , the sweet idiotic messages , the late night calls , the long calls we had , everythings gone now & the time when you recovered , u started calling back without even me calling , now that you are in this condition again , i doubt anything`s going to be the same again .
How much time do you possibly need? , how much time is this going to take ?
I know i`ll wait , i know i`ll never move away but i don`t know if you even care to stop and think how much concern i have for you. I don`t know if you will know that i`ll always be there.
You said you needed space , i`m giving u alot and it`s really killing me.
And i how i wish i could just pour out how i feel to you , but i know that i have convinced you that i have moved on in life , i proved to you that i became stronger. & I want you to think that i have changed , i`m tired of always giving in , but how do i tell you , i`m extremely broken apart , torn apart . I don`t want things to change again like how they did when u first found out about everything , i know you can get much prettier and all , but which girl would even treat u like this , u just don`t know how it feels. I may not be your type and all , but that does n`t matter , what matters is the amount of value i have put in , in this friendship .
You are something that i`ll never regret , and a chance would be more then enough.
You`ll never know unless you try yourself , but i know it`s impossible , cause you`ll never.
;I made a mistake of loving you.
I waited so long ; you showed me you were the one.
I gave u my heart from the very start.
I was hurting , i was broken i stayed too long & so that's why , didn`t think that i moved on.
It`s all because , i loved you , i held ya. - You`r not what i needed.
You left me a heartache , how much more could i take?
